Crazy Crazy Week Part II

Hey there! I left off on Friday. I will pick up with Saturday.

Saturday: After very little sleep, I got up and went to A’s basketball game. It was a good game. He got plowed over by someone twice his size and then the guy fell on him! The whole crowd roared. A was okay but I almost had a heart attach! I couldn’t look. I just kept asking if he was okay. He was! Hubs and I came home, we worked on the furnace. We put a old, not too dirt filter in, that did the trick. We were happy. I went to watch Hannah skate at a skate with Santa event. She had a wardrobe malfunction but handled with great ease and maturity. We had dinner and did some more shopping. Pretty good day.

Sunday, December 20th:  Woke up to snow. H had a big skating competition so I took the day off. I offered to drive another mom and her daughter back down to the U of M to the competition. I was running a little late so I was nervous. We were almost to the U when my car started dinging. It said Check the Charging System. It kept saying it. I called the hubs told him to bring jumper cables and tools to the competition. He did. He looked at the van and couldn’t get the light to come on so he left. It seemed fine. He thought it was a fuse. H and her team got second place! It was a great competition. I had a sick feeling in my gut that I should not take the girls back in my van. They had practice after the competition because we have 2 more big competitions in January. All the moms were giving me a hard time but I sent the girls with someone else. A friend offered to ride with me in case I had problems and others were looking out for me. We drove along and then 5 minutes out of my town on the freeway my car went nuts. The signals started flashing, the bells were dinging, I lost my lights, my turn signal, my dashboard. I told S to hold on because I was driving to the nearest repair shop I could think of. I literally went through red lights, a four way stop and gunned it up a hill to the repair shop. It was so stressful! My son B and his friend dropped us off a car.

Monday: We heard from the shop it was just my battery. I was so relieved but skeptical. Hubs and I went to more “couch time”. It was an intense session. Hubs dropped me off to pick up the van and went to a meeting. I drive along in the van. It seems to be working fine. It is my day to drive carpool. I meet the girls in the parking lot. Van is on. Girls pile in. Van starts dinging again. *#$@! The girls all get out and go in another car. I call the shop and drive the van over. Hubs is not picking up because he is in a meeting. Son is 25 minutes away, he and his friend rescue me again. I take B’s car to drive carpool. I get home at 10. I am exhausted both mentally and physically. I am at the end of my rope. I had a couple of good cries and went to bed.

Tuesday: Because of the stress of Monday, I decide I need to take a half day vacation to finish Christmas shopping before Christmas party #5. B and I go get my van and shop together. Merry Christmas to me, I got a new alternator for $600! Nice huh! I look so good in it! I get home from Christmas shopping and the furnace isn’t working right again and my phone battery died. I kid you not! At this point, I think my heart may burst out of my chest. I call hubs. He said he would be over. I went and bought 6 new furnace filters. I am happy to report, the furnace hasn’t had a problem since that point.

Wednesday, December 23: I had the day off. I decide it is going to be a good day. I am happy to say that it was. I finished my shopping, got the house clean and we had 15 pounds of Lobster delivered to the house! Try to top that!

Thursday, December 24: Today has been a peaceful day. The Winter Storm that we are having has made Christmas quiet. No driving all over because it isn’t safe. We are home relaxing tonight and tomorrow. Eating good food and enjoying my kids makes a great Christmas Eve.

Merry Christmas everyone! Through all the ups and downs of life, I hope you are all able to enjoy your family and friends. Treat yourself well, you deserve it. To all my Twitter friends, I hope life has settle down for me and I look forward to talking to you all more in the next week!

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Crazy Crazy Week Part I

I thought I would give you all a snap shot of my life. The holidays can be a crazy time and it just so happens that this week and last week were  insane time. I will give you a snap shot of my weeks day to day.

Sunday, December 13: Goes on record as being one of my worst days at work of all time. I literal hid at one point so I wouldn’t burst into tears. All the computers went down, kids were 3 minutes late to get on stage, a kid went missing (later found with parent we never had him), boss was pissed, I was pissed, nice day (NOT!).

Monday: “Couch time” with hubs was intense. Christmas party #1.

Tuesday: Paycheck mix up, bad letter from the State. Christmas party #2.

Wednesday: Paycheck mix up fixed, Christmas parties #3 & #4

At this point I had not seen my kids more than an hour all week. For me, this makes an insane mom! I missed them, even if they are teenagers.

Thursday: Was a busy day, mandatory family dinner. Starting to feel sick.

Friday: This is where things get interesting and really start to go down hill. Friday is my day off. I get up to do Christmas shopping and so on. I pick the kids up early from school cause they want to ditch out on a program and I am ever so happy to help them. A asks me if we can go to Wal-mart, he wants to buy a DVD. I say sure. He asks if he can drive, I say sure again. He has his permit and it was a nice day so I figured what can it hurt? We are driving along and we pull up next to a police car. I tease A that the cops are next to him. We keep on going. We are chatting and A says to me, “Mom, am I supposed to pull over if the lights are flashing?” I look back to see that we are in fact being pulled over! Poor A! He was shaking and asking me what he did wrong. I had no idea what he did! The police officer came up and A couldn’t get the windows down right away. I had expired tabs on my car, expired since September! The officer was nice NO ticket! I sent a txt to the hubs, he renewed them online immediately. Ugh. We had a good laugh about it when it was over but my poor buddy!

Next I go downtown to the Mariucci Arena for Hannah to skate. I am exhausted by this point. We get home and the heat is not working in the house! OMG! I was frustrated. I called my husband and asked him what to do. He had no ideas. I kept adjusting the filter and it started up again. I had to do this 4 times in the night! Up and down two flights of stairs each time. It was a long, long night.

This is a long post. If you are interested to hear how the next couple of days go, check back in a day or two. It gets worse for me before it gets better. Life sure is a rollercoaster!

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Why I Blog, Part II

I wrote a post yesterday that briefly describes why I blog.  I woke up this morning to see that I have received the Neno’s Award from Princess Jenn . I immediately went to  her blog to see what this meant. I have never received a Blog Award before. I am honored. Thank you Jenn!

The Neno’s Award

The aims of this award:

  • As a dedication for those who love blogging activity and love to encourage friendships through blogging.
  • To seek the reasons why we all love blogging!

Here are the rules of the award:

  • Put the award in one post as soon as you receive it.
  • Don’t forget to mention the person who gives you the award.
  • Answer the award’s question by writing the reason why you love blogging.
  • Tag and distribute the award to as many people as you like.
  • Don’t forget to notify the award receivers and put their links in your post.

I have to say, some days, I feel like I have so much in my heart, I need to get it out so I blog.  Other days, I have very little to say. My entries are mostly to encourage myself and others. Sometimes my entries are a pep talk to myself, sometimes to others. I do not blog for attention, I don’t really like attention. I do blog because I feel as though if I want to be a true Twitter and blog friend, I owe it to the individuals that I am befriending. I say this because, I do not like a one-sided friendship in any setting. I blog to reach out.

I would like to tag the following:

MommasGoneCity for starting some really serious conversations on her blog, she is young and full of sass! Check her out here

Masmom for being one of the bravest people I have ever known. I heart her! Check her out here

avasmommy for being real, honest and challenging me to blog that way. Check her out here

kim205 for being raw, real and honest. I hope 2010 is better to her than 2009. Check her out here

Why do you blog, why do you read, what keeps you on the “interwebs”? Share…

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Learning from others

What I enjoy about being on Twitter and reading blogs is the chance to learn and grow. I enjoy learning from others triumphs, I try to learn from their mistakes and what they have to say about their lives. I have found that I have grown as a person, as a friend, as a mother and as a person.

Last week, I was on Twitter, when Princess Jenn announced that she had a new blog post. I immediately went and read this post. Jenn’s post spoke to me. I tried to respond to her three times but kept deleting my response. Nothing seemed right to say, nothing seemed appropriate. How do I tell Jenn what is in my heart? I have never met Jenn but I have someone similar to Jenn in my life. I am going to call this person Rachel. Rachel is a great mom. She would do anything for her kids. She is at the ice rink every week a couple times a week faithfully watching her daughter skate. Rachel has a son who is 4. Rachel’s son, who I will call Spencer, has a sensory disorder. He is the sweetest boy, I love seeing him at the rink. Recently, we have gotten to see much more of Spencer. Rachel’s father had a stroke, he has been in and out of the hospital, he cannot be left alone so Rachel’s mother can no longer care for Spencer while his sister skates. Spencer comes, he loves to touch, he climbs all over me, asks to hold my hand, and asks the same questions a bunch. I think Spencer is awesome. This week, on Tuesday, I sit down at the rink and ask Rachel how it is going. She tells me this long story about how her past night went. Her husband had to go into emergency surgery, to get his appendix removed. Because the kids were at home she could not be there with him. Because of the weather, she couldn’t get to him during the day. He was being discharged that evening. Rachel was going to put the kids in the car and drive to the hospital in horrible traffic to pick him up. She look tired. I said, Rachel, let me take your kids. She said, you want Spencer? I said, yes, I would love to have Spencer. She said, he can be annoying, he asks the same thing over and over. I said, he is not annoying, he is great! She gave me the kids and took off to the hospital.

I brought the kids home. Spencer was a little thrown off but excited to be with my daughter and his sister. Remember Jenn’s post? I did. I had my daughter find him a Game Boy Advance and some games. Jenn’s helped me know that this might help. It was time to eat dinner, I offered, Spencer said NO! Jenn helped me know, that was okay, mom wouldn’t want me to force it. Spencer would be upset and uncomfortable. Jenn taught me to love on this boy, smile at him, and make him feel safe. I knew I could do that.

Rachel came to get the kids. Spencer didn’t want to leave. He was having fun. I knew I did my job. Rachel thanked me for not forcing him to eat. She was relieved. Thank you Jenn. Spencer threw a fit and tried to hit his mom, I didn’t judge. Thank you Jenn. Rachel was embarrassed and thought I would think Spencer always acted this way. I thought of Jenn. I did my best to reassure Rachel I was not judging her and that I didn’t think any differently of Spencer.

This long post is to say first of all, Jenn, thanks for your reminders, your educating, your honesty. This long post is to say, all of us bloggers, us because I am talking to myself too, share and be honest, you help others become better individuals. This is NOT to make myself look good it is to inspire to help, to be there, to move out of your comfort zone as you can. We all need a break, we all need help, we all need support. I did it this time, next time someone may do it for me, or next time it may be you.

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I am a Proud Friend of Maddie



I am a proud friend of Madeline Alice Spohr. Even though I never met you, I fell in love with you and your family Maddie. Your sweet smile, your laugh, the joy you represent. Your fighting spirit that you got from both of your parents inspires me. You made a difference in my life. You remind me daily what life is all about. Children are a blessing. Children are a joy. Children are a gift. Today on your birthday, I struggle with words but to not say anything would feel like a crime. Today, in your honor I will wear purple, love deeply, and smile while thinking of you. I can’t help but smile when I look at your smile. The purple flowers below were photographed in your honor. Happy Birthday Maddie!




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What kind of change would you like to be?

I read a Gandhi quote a month or so ago and it has stuck with me. “Be the change you want to be in the world.”

The book I was reading said that often times people want to change the world before they themselves change and that it rarely works. The change I am seeking to be and model to my children is to not be judgmental and to believe the best in people. I am not always successful. That is the change I am aspiring to be currently. Hopefully my change will trickle down to those who I am in relationship with and it will trickle out further and affect real change. What change are you aspiring to be?red picnic table

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My Crazy Thank You

If you follow me on Twitter, you know that I have gone through and continue to go through a rough time in my life. I am not ready to get into details about my Crazy life right now. Instead, I want to say thank you to all of my online friends who check on me, who support me, who allow me to be real and myself. You all have helped me tremendously without really even knowing it. Thank you.

Two weeks ago, I had a tearful public meltdown on Twitter. This is not like me at all. There are very few people who get the glimpse of me that many friends got that day. I was temporarily embarrassed but you all talked me through that. You all checked on me, DM’d me, emailed me and threatened to call if I did not surface. You all made sure I knew I was not alone, that I would be okay, and that you were there for me. Thank you.

I love the blog world and the Twitter world more today than I did two weeks ago. There are many people with many experiences who are good people who really care. I see I missed some drama while I was out on my break and for that I am thankful. Because of the drama, I felt compelled to write today. Please all you wonderful caring people do not change. You are amazing friends, amazing support, and amazing examples of what mankind should be. Thank you.

My son told me when I started Twitter that I was using it for its intended purpose, social networking. I feel incredibly blessed to have met each and every one of you. I am not going away. I hope you won’t either. Thank you for showing me love and friendship.

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